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Wednesday, 18 January 2012

  • <3

     

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    Will tomorrow be better
    When yesterday things got worse?
    Just when I'm moving forward
    You go and put me in reverse

    And just because we were
    That don't mean that we are meant to be
    No, but who cares what tomorrow brings
    If it can't make sense of you and me?

     

     

     

     

    It's too late
    To cut you out
    You're in my blood
    You're gonna spread

    Your smell, your taste
    Your laugh
    Stuck in my heart
    And trapped in my head
     

    If I could wake up
    How I dreamt
    I wouldn't feel
    So tired

    Your eyes
    That laugh and cry
    Can't seem the
    Eyes of liars

    But that don't mean
    I love you less
    And that don't mean
    I want you more than right now
    Baby, right now
     

Wednesday, 09 November 2011

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    this took me all night to find, i HAD this song stuck in the back of my brain for the past 2-3 years..always humming and never remembered the title or the artist. I finally found you ..

     

     

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    ‘Cause that’s not where I belong
    Said that’s not where I belong
    My heart knows where I belong 
    With you is where I belong 

     

  • So after finally getting my P's on my second attempt with outstanding scores ..AHEM. I am glad to be finally driving. Now that exams are ending tomorrow. I CAN FINALLY GO OUT AND HAVE FUN!!(Other than working full time :( )

    It's already been 2 years since i've graduated from uni, and things feel quite different. It's such a weird feeling where you feel you're the same, but everything and everyone around you has changed. However the only part of me has changed is my self understanding, being a talkative introvert. I realised i am quite antisocial  unless reached out by others. 

     Like i did before, here is a list of things this holidays

     

    - Finish off unfinished paintings

    - Do more design work and create new layout for website (For those who havent seen its www.heshiyun.com) it's still a working progress and i havent added in my new works in, but soon :)

    - Eat healthier

    - Stop procrastinating and see friends more 

    - Be more cultured and try new cuisines and travel more

    - Continue Xanga. you started in 2005..dont quit

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

  • false memories.

     

    finding this video made by wongfu, it reminds me of all the times i start day dreaming about something happening, so much to the point that i believe it has actually happened to me. Stupid, but it felt good..this false hope at the back of my mind which actually turns into reality the more i engulf myself with that idea. Its sort of like dreams, believing something happening just in another dimension, another world.

    How different would things be if we all got what we wanted? If everything was perfect? If everything was so perfect, everything would mean nothing beause no effort or skills was required to attain it. 

    This huge load of nostalgic feelings come rushing back. Growing up is such a pain in the ass, although this is just the very beginning of alot of growing up. Who knows, maybe looking back a few years later..what i'm living now would be one of my greatest memories. 

    Be grateful for everything and everyone around you, live being proud of who you are and what you've done and become. When you're on your death bed. You just wish you can go back and just do something more..extra to make someone happier. Be happy, nice and live with no regrets :)

Tuesday, 06 September 2011

  • My eyes don't lie

     

    I remember being first introduced to this song in year 9, the day before we head over to broken hill for our two week adventure. That night i couldn't sleep and kept playing this song on repeat on my CD player. 2007, the year i liked this guy all the way in canada and was the first time i sent him a letter containing the red earth sealed by a paper and lots of sticky tape at broken hill along with cliche souvenirs ..like a mouse strap saying "trapped in broken hill", that time i thought i was so "grown up". Thinking back it was kind of sweet and stupid. 

    Coming across this song again tonight after losing the CD for 4 years and discovering the name of the song was "my eyes dont lie" rather than track 7. Reading back old letters and memories makes me miss everything so much when things were so innocent and happy. Heart break free and all filled with butterflies.

     

     

    For what I really feel inside
    My eyes won't let me hide
    Every time I see you they start to cry
    Cause this time my love it could mean goodbye
    Don't say goodnight